I was speaking to another Catholic yesterday about what exactly led me to the faith- surely it was my husband being a cradle Catholic they thought- although that definitely helped, my husband was not the reason. I decided that if I was going to become Catholic- i would do it on my terms 🙂 I wanted to search for myself to see if the Catholic Church was the one true Church founded by Jesus Christ.
I wasn’t really raised with any particular religion, my mother’s side of the family were Jehovah Witnesses and my father’s side was Baptist- i was all messed up!! 🙂 My parents were divorced when i was about 7 years old and neither really practiced their faith “religiously” but my Mother did not celebrate birthdays or Christmas for the most part, so we would go to my Father’s house for presents. I really did not know any different as a child.
So, when I got married I really began to search- I had already began reading many, many books on the Saints as well as my Bible a year or so prior but i continued to do so. With my husbands urging (i thought it was rather annoying at the time, actually) i began staying after Mass- he suggested, “stay for an hour”- i replied, “how about 20 minutes?” It took awhile, but I began to stay an hour- I would walk and pray the Stations of The Cross but it wasn’t until I “discovered” Divine Mercy that things really took a deeper route for me. The message and Image of Divine Mercy made so much more sense to me! I understood the Holy Mass better and I could relate more while praying under the Crucifix. I began to truly walk the Stations of the Cross more intimately with our Lord and Blessed Mother that time flew by- i began staying for 2 hours- i did not want to leave. I felt so consoled that I was consoling Jesus– I was there being His friend and trying to look through the eyes of my friend, Jesus, and image the pain He must be going through knowing that so many of His children reject Him. That’s all He wanted- for me to truly spend meaningful time with Him.
The words, “For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world” became so alive to me. I would sit in the dark at St. Andrew Parish in front of our Lord and pray that prayer all the while never taking my eyes off of Jesus. What a gift we have in being able to walk into any Catholic Church at any given time and spend time with our Lord. This is a gift for all of us. I thank God every day for giving me the Grace to accept His gift. There’s a package with your name on it too- all you need to do is open it.